Why I Gym

by Kelli on December 20, 2012

in Fitness, Health

Why I GymIt started in my 20s.  It started when losing weight was just a treadmill away, when happy hours and parties weren’t detrimental to having pants that fit, when all the calories from the night before could be forgiven by a 30-minute elliptical session.

But it has turned into so much more. A way of life, a way to keep myself sane.

Because really, I can’t function without exercise.

I used to think I did it for weight control.  But after an unplanned five-week hiatus, I realized I don’t need to exercise for weight loss or maintenance. I need it to feel normal.

When I took all that time off, I no longer felt normal.  I felt down, I felt lethargic, I felt…crappy.  I kept telling myself I’d get back into my regular, healthy routine, but I didn’t.  I couldn’t.  The amount of energy I knew I needed for a workout was overwhelming.  So instead I wallowed and bemoaned the loss of my ability to wear any of my jeans.

Everyone told me I looked fine, but the thing is, I didn’t feel fine.  I wasn’t taking care of my body, and I felt it.  I was tired and felt heavy and, worst of all, my mood was down.  Way down.  I was letting myself go, and that didn’t at all work for me.  That is not who I am.  I’m a fighter.  I’m a person who changes things I don’t like.  Yet there I was, stuck on the couch stuffing myself with metaphorical bon-bons and feeling sorry for myself.

What got me unstuck wasn’t even myself…it was the owner of my gym, texting me to tell me it was time to get back to my “A” game.

I wasn’t even sure I still had an “A” game.  My first few workouts back were certainly evidence of that.  I couldn’t keep my former pace, I couldn’t lift as much weight.  But in spite of all that, I felt fantastic.  There is nothing in the world like a workout high.  Those endorphins they always talk about?  Not just a myth.

I need those feel-good chemicals floating around in my body. I need the rush, I need the movement to help me focus on the rest of my life. It gives me energy, inspiration, and normalcy. This is why I gym.

Do you have something that helps you feel normal?

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Stacey December 20, 2012 at 5:08 pm

Running! Which is why I am currently so deep in a funk I am having trouble pulling my head out. Only two more weeks till my knee is ‘healed’ and then I can hit the trails and stop yelling at people :)

Kelli December 20, 2012 at 7:49 pm

Oh man! Getting injured is the WORST. Running is such a powerful coping mechanism. I have had some of my best inspiration while running the lake by my house. I hope your knee is all the way healed (and that you can wait until it is to start running) soon.

Stacey December 21, 2012 at 2:01 pm

Yes it’s been hard because right now I just want to EAT ALL THE THINGS! Last year this time I was newly seperated and had just taken up running, and that is hope I coped with the seperation. I’m willing to wait this injury out however because racing season starts again in Oregon in Februaury and I have a lot of PRs to set in various events!

Amanda December 20, 2012 at 7:21 pm

Honestly? Sex. If I go for too long without having sex with my husband, I get short-tempered and I just feel awful and disconnected from everything. The only time that hasn’t been the case was after our son was born, and even then, after two weeks, I wanted that connection back. We just function better as a couple, and I function better as an individual when we’re connecting on that level.

Kelli December 20, 2012 at 7:50 pm

Love it! You are every man’s dream wife.

Amanda December 22, 2012 at 1:57 am

HA! That’s only one part of the package – there are any given number of other things that can make me less of a dream woman, lol! :)

Britannia December 21, 2012 at 5:03 am

Yoga. It centres me and keeps me from stressing out too much about my work. It forces me to focus solely on the physical side and to appreciate my body and its strength.

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