Self & Body

Taking Back Me

November 11, 2010

Comfortable in this skin. I’m not. And I am. I’ve gained weight. Quite a bit. I look at you and I don’t see your size, I see your sparkling eyes, your boisterous infectious laugh, your beautiful hair, your captivating smile, your heart, your elegant hands, your adorable sprinkling of freckles, the bounce in your step, […]

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A Look in the Mirror

November 10, 2010

Did you ever look in the mirror, and stare so long that you didn’t even know who you were looking at? Like, you saw yourself through the windows of your soul, but you were kind of lost. You were there, yes, but you were hiding really well. Almost as if you were hiding so well […]

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On the Playground

November 10, 2010

I think it started at the end of 2nd grade. My best friend lived across the street from me and on weekends, we were inseparable.  We spent every waking moment together, running back and forth between our houses.  But during the week she wasn’t my friend.  She was a silent partner to bullies at school, […]

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Tips for Confidence

November 8, 2010

Over the summer I attended BlogHer’10, and I was compelled to write about what I do to take care of myself, and how these steps help me put my best foot forward. I think these simple tips are easy to overlook, especially when adhering to the busy schedule of a conference (or, to be quite […]

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When it comes to my weight, I call fuzzy math.

November 6, 2010

Andy is ignoring me. I am TRYING to ask him if I look like the chubby one from Facts of Life when I wear a bathing suit.  But he isn’t responding to my gchat from the bedroom. Andy LOVES when I play the Am I as Fat as This Person!? game. Second only to the […]

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On Confidence and Loathing

November 4, 2010

As a little girl, sitting at my desk in school was the worst. I was always self-conscious about any fat rolls showing to those sitting behind me. Standing was fine, but sitting? That was when I felt the worst about being “big boned.” The boy that I crushed hard on always sat behind me, too. […]

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Photographic Evidence

October 28, 2010

When my Mom called to tell me she’d gotten a disc with all 3000 of our wedding photos on them, the stars were either misaligned or I was suffering a serious bout of hormone shifting. I was incredibly nervous over the photos and before she could say anything, I asked her how I looked. And […]

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Muscle Weighs More Than Fat: Beating Scale Addiction

January 12, 2010

They would send us down five at a time, and there we’d wait for our name to be called by the rotund, little, old lady who was the elementary school nurse.   Her name was Mrs. Butino.  She wore a tight bun in her hair, and on this particular day I remember how she tapped a […]

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